My Heart Is Sore

My Heart is Sore

I am exhausted wondering about my stance
but I know it's not merely social dance,
it's a contemplation of the gravest plan.
And I have no doubt I behave like a man.

I've said what I mean, meant what I said.
But I've heard my heart as well as head.
Yet I find self-awareness is not enough.

I'm going to proceed... plan to get tough
to find means and ways to soon provide
all we need if your future's at my side.

Perhaps spiritual tests are still hidden
until for your sake some day I'm bidden
but for now I can't think anything more.
My heart, my mind, and my gut is sore.

I pray whatever we do or don't is right
for to grow we must always seek light.
But it has been a shock for me to find
one person can put me in such a bind.

I thought I'm self-sufficient, but no...
my vulnerability to me you do show.
I had never imagined such yearning.

I sure hope something good I am learning!
I earnestly hope this is good for you.
What's to pray is our happiness is due!

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