Skipping, not revealing, all the dozens of pages of arguments since the divorce action began, it is now obvious, from "the mouths of babes" that what I suspected, and alleged, due to phone bills and other references, including admissions later denied, that there was indeed motivation caused by the "other man"... and was true all along many months before any "divorce-speak".

I found these drawings last night, 19Mar08, on the lounge table... by my natural son Daniel, who is only 6.

He has sons from a previous marriage who are 11 and 15, or so I am now told by my own kids, who have all spent time with them, and him, and my wife, in "family" gatherings.

That my 6-year-old is spending time at home, when it is only me and James at home (who knows where his mother is again?), drawing these and the following is heart-rending (at least to me!)

I am very hurt, again, and totally amazed that she can lie so brazenly to third parties that she has no boyfriend and that my kids have never had family outings with him and his kids.  Astounding, in a disgusting sort of way.  They think if you can't prove it then it doesn't or did not exist nor happen.

WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND.
(I believe, and that is generally true.)

I pray for their well-being, and for mine. Amen.

P.S.- For those who may care, and no one has said so, I can also post 2 months of phone bills with over 600(!) contacts with this "Chris" dude, etc., plus other documents, but the case in mediation is that mothers win when children are concerned so even though they have seduced my minor children with WII, and outings, etc., I will probably lose on the major issues of the house and all goods included therein (dishwasher, cooker, freezer, washer, furnitures, etc.).  If I don't kill myself I wouldn't mind if someone else did, or burn down the house so we could just split the claim, or she could poison me with a tyre-related substance so it seemed to come from my work, etc.  I cannot go on much longer in this way so I will try to negotiate a fair way to move away, and then I hope (though I cannot figure out how she could do it without Chris or her Mum or fraud) that she can buy me out so I can just leave a start a new life.

I have been trying to do my best by helping her petition to go through fastest, and I have denoted her 9 options on either taking the house or us selling it; and, I have drafted the agreement on children that she signed that we both sent to the court.

But I do wish sometimes that I could just die in my sleep.

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